Happy 30th Birthday, my husband
November 12th, 2022
Being independent is a safe place; is being secure with
who I am and motivated to do things only by myself. That’s what I
believed. I was so convinced back then.
Now, after 6 months through marriage (corn age, I know) I’m starting to question it.
You and I: two separate beings, each with our own feelings, emotions, aspirations, beliefs, end up under the oath of being with each other till death parts us. Why put ourselves into such trouble?
Coincidentally, at the time of this writing, it has been 700 days since I’ve met you for the first time. Today marks 182 days since we got married and almost every single day went by without us not meeting each other in person. And yet, now that I reflect back, never once I had the feeling I needed my own space & independence. I have been anticipating those moments. But they never arrived.
My life
now, I realize, isn’t only about me. My personal space, something I used to hold
onto and cherish so much. I still do, now, even more so than before, isn’t
mine only. My life and space are yours as much as they are mine. I can’t
picture my life and space without you in it.
This is what I want: a space for the two of us (and soon, three of us <3 :) A space to call home. A home where we grow old and happy together. A home to love, give love, and receive it in return. A home where we learn anything together, literally and figuratively.
I found this entry in my journal, dated June, 2020:
My brother told
me:
"First
is to realize it’s up to us how we want to perceive things.”
“Second, most
importantly, is to learn to love ourselves before asking others to love us.”
I feel that
being with you, taught me to understand those both points. Thank you for being
the kindest and be here with me. I know, however, that I’m fine. More than I
have ever been. So fine, in fact, that I now have the courage to ask:
Would you live life with me for the rest of our lives and forever more? Because I totally would.
Happy 30th Birthday my amazing husband, my soulmate and best friend. Here’s to making a lifetime of memories together-
Love you to infinity <3
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